the big o's

okay.
the big thing everyone's talking about now.
no not manutd 3-0 chelsea. [still big lah :D]
it's the big o's man.

i got a 13 for r5.
10 for r4.
and no, im not happy about it.
im not bragging.
cause getting a 13 is nowhere near getting the rights to brag.
in fact, im disappointed.
i aimed for a single digit.
n i got a 13.
not a nice number, not a nice grade.

okay heres how it went.

12noon. meet yuanhao, choy, terance, amir, james at hougang point macs.
lunched at macs.
ate mega beef prosperity burger.
sucked a whole lot i tell u.
dont ever go eat that lame stuff.
somemore almost hitting 10bucks. wth lor.

sheila joined us later.
then we went toilet spray choy's hair black.
after spraying, his hair became damn dry.
then it started to curl abit. lol sia.

went to sch next.
long time since ive been there.
to be exact, its 2months 1day sia.
many ppl were there alr.
went walking around the school.
walk here walk there.
took a look at the new batch of sec1s.
xinmin the sec1 sec2 really cmi lor =.=
as in, look too neat le. zzz.

okay then the big thing.
time to go to the hall.
saw mr lee on the way.
apparently he couldnt be there to give us our results.
cause he had to go hospital.
his daughter over there i think.
abit sad sia cant see mr lee liao =/

started with a boring talk by some youth alumni guy.
talked about poly n stuff.
tried to give us advice.
aiya but all gehgeh one lah.
his main motive is trying to get us to join xinmin youth alumni lor.
wan gehsiao also no need geh until so obvious right =.=

then it was the usual jae briefing.
heartbeat was like [thump, thump, thump]

then the statistics.
heartbeat was like [thump thump, thump thump, thump thump]

next it was time for all the cheena imported ppl to go up on stage n haolian to the singaporeans. lmao.

then............ THE RELEASE OF THE RESULTS.
heartbeat was like [thump thump thump thump thump thump]
damn kancheong can.
register number was to the back, so even more panic.
saw everyone's reaction.
dont think anyone from my class was happy with their results.

i went up to mr tang.
he scolded me wtf.
asked me to pay my loans.
o$p$ wtf.
i owed xinmin $107.55 lah.

then i collected my report book.
with the results wedged inside.
didnt want to look at it first.
so went back to my place before opening it.

pulled out the sheet slowly.

first was chinese.
fuck man i still got a b3 in the end, after wasting so much time and money on retaking that bloody paper.

then poa, absent LOL.

then sci n amaths.
omg oneone.

then i pulled out the rest.
numbers damn ugly...

got a b3 for english.
contented with it, cause i was expecting a c5.

combined humanities. b4.
happy with it, cause i blasted my way through history seq.

geography. b3.
abit disappoited, cause i was expecting a distinction.
but after i saw the statistics, which stated that only 45.5% of the candidates got a distinction for geog, i knew where i would stand.
in other words i knew that i would get a b3 lah.

okay then talked to cris, consoled yuanhao, started finding out about everyone else's results.

but what i didnt take notice of was my emath.....
5mins later.
when i looked at my result slip again,
i saw "mathematics"
i traced that line, to the grade numerical.
and.........
it showed a two....................................................
wtf man........
two for emath??
immediately, i thought to myself, i need a review.
how can this be seriously.
no im not bragging here.
im not the bragging pattern one.
i was totally shocked/stunned/astounded/dumbfounded.
no not haolian-ing my english here.
im trying to emphasize how shocked i was.
i traced the line again.
to make sure.
and it still showed a two.
my eyes couldnt be playing tricks on me.
i thought to myself, how come a two?
i remembered doing the paper confidently.
and i remembered myself checking the papers like a maddog until the very last minute.
anyway, i'll just have to accept my grade i guess =/
must have been fucking careless somewhere.

went for movie after that with choy, amir, sai, n zahran.
caught ongbak2, my first ever nc16 movie in theatres! lol.
not bad lah, but some parts really damn sian =.=
but his fighting was awesome.
dined at choy's hse coffeeshop after that.
ate something shitty again.
my meals today werent nice at all man :(
home after that.
did some self-reflection on the bus.
i still cant believe ive already collected my o level results lah.
feels weird.
duno whether i can sleep tonight anot.
sian.

aiya whatever it is.
whats done is done.
nothing can turn time back.
nothing can make me score any better for this fucking o's which i only had one fucking chance to score for it which i fucking threw away that chance thinking that i would fucking do well for it.
fuck lah.
one thing is for sure.
if i get into aerospace technology in ngeeann poly, im gonna chiong like a maddog.
balancing studies n play, but still doing well.
not gonna take any chances anymore.
not gonna let myself down.
now, my goal is to make it big in life.
succeed in life.
doing the best.
not trying my best, not doing my best, but doing the best.

from ernest wong of course. haha.
still can remember his stuffs.

actions have consequences.
stupid actions for one year, gave me the consequence today.
oh well.

still can remember, his first pro phrase was...
its not how good you are, its how good you want to be.
i want to make it big in life. thats how good i wanna be.

and then theres...
success is a day to day progressive realisation of pre-planned, personal, worthwhile goals.
i wanna experience success someday again.

and in cheena, the pro su2 yu3,
failure is the mother of success.
ive failed myself.
and i promise myself i'll succeed someday...

feels weird.
ive completed the first stage of life.
now im turning into a new path.
embarking on my second stage in life, no clue as to what lies ahead.

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